No you're not alone, oh no my cousins, you're not alone.

I've had a rough few weeks.  Rough few months I suppose.  Sometimes it's so hard to find happiness in a situation that seems like it would stem from.  

After awhile of enduring this it's pretty obvious that it's something that'll show no balance, no complete fulfillment for either party, going like it currently is.  Maybe later when things have changed their places it'll work, but for now it's not worth the effort and depression to sustain.  

Events like these highlight the need for balance in life.  Giving all you can to a person and only receiving when they find it convenient is very destructing.  

I talked to somebody about this, and they said I'm a too independent person to be caught up in something like this, and I agree;  I think about these problems and realize I'm a too independent person to be chasing a unrealistic thought such as this.  I know how to make myself feel good, and I know what it takes to put fulfillment into my life.  Letting others have complete control over whether you have a good or bad day is ridiculous.  You need to make it out for yourself.  

Be ambitious.

Think of something you've always wanted to do or to learn, and do it.

Love yourself.

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